Confidante?

It feels like more and more, my friends don't confide in me. Lately, I've been the last one to find out about the exciting things that happen to my friends, and they talk to each other in veiled terms in front of me about things I don't know about. I feel like people don't trust me to understand what's going on in their lives. It makes me kinda sad... I mean, I know I've got a lot going on right now, but that doesn't mean I don't have time for the people that I care about. Are they afraid to let me in? Did I let somebody down before?

follow up

On Saturday, a complete stranger commented on how good my posture was. What now. :D

Posture

I've noticed that I don't stand up straight any more. I always had amazing posture, and because I sat up, I looked confident, and people took notice of me. Now, I'm tired all the time, and I slump. With my new short hair and bangs, I'm always tossing my head to get my hair out of my eyes, and holding my head at awkward angles to prevent it from falling down again. Even my appearance isn't as good as it used to be--I rarely wear heels anymore, and I have a lot less concern about how I look when I leave the house.

But as a result of my bad posture, I get tension headaches and knots in the muscles of my neck. I feel like I don't care about things anymore. I act like I can't deal with everything on my plate. But I have to be able to deal with everything. If I don't act confident, I won't FEEL confident. If I tell myself that I don't care how I look, soon I won't care how I act or what impressions people get from me.

Today, I'm wearing high heels, nice jeans, and not just a sweatshirt. I'm forcing myself to sit up straight in class.