Birthday Card

"Okay, so you just turned eighteen and the world is this vibrant place full of possibilities and amazing stuff to experience and things you maybe couldn't do before but you can now and you intend to immediately if not sooner...

...and no one gets to tell you no you can't do that because this is your life and your destiny is calling.

So, what are you going to do first?"

Thanks Brooke, for the best birthday card I've ever received. :)

Birthday

It's my first birthday in two years that I've been at home!! I'm very excited about that. It's hopefully going to be a really good day--my last THREE birthdays have actually kinda sucked. People have been self centered and thoughtless of me on MY day. Hmmph. (so if you read this, be nice to me today!) But my schedule for today is so far looking really good: Picnic with the boyfriend then dinner with the fam? I think yes. :)

So, since I'm 18 now, I should probably be blogging about how different it is to be legally an adult in this country, to gain responsibilities that I never had before, to feel the pressures of society bearing down on me with no forseeable escape, to lose my youthful innocence... But I'm not going to.

I'd rather just be happy that today is my birthday. :)

Surprise!

Well, I did it. I deleted all those unnecessary people on facebook! I feel so much better now! PLUS, there's a girl (underclassman) who looks and acts like she's a lot older than 16 (or maybe 15, I don't know) and will DEFINITELY get into trouble one day; I said something on her profile picture about acting her age that will piss her off and hopefully make her think about what she puts online. Then I deleted her. It was awesome. I love having the last word!

Note to the two people I love most in the world: remember the plans we made on Iron Mountain for our inside joke? We started it a little but it died after just a couple of days. We need to start that again!

One more thing--as I was going through and deleting people, I discovered that one of my girlfriends from elementary school had a different last name. I'm like, you have to be kidding--she got married on May 28. She's 19! Actually, come to think of it, I don't remember seeing her at graduation. She's the first person in my class to get married... My mom has been telling me it will start happening a lot faster than I expected, the last couple of years of college my girlfriends will start calling me home for weddings... I guess I just didn't expect it to happen this quickly. But then again, I can't say I'm surprised.

Oh wait, one other thing. How come all these people I haven't talked to in years are all the sudden going to college with me???? Whatever happened to "I've never heard of Chapman before"? I'M SO CONFUSED.


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Contact List

So I've realized, through my last week of high school and being surrounded by the same people for four years, there are a TON of people I am gonna miss so much. It is just starting to hit me that me and Stanley will never gossip in Spanish anymore, and the epic juniors in my Bio class will no longer be there with me and Katie to piss off Chrispy, and the days of protesting Graber's shrill, sadistic squeal at 7:30 in the morning are no more. I am gonna miss SO many things, and SO many people, from high school.

That being said, there are also a ton of people I am not gonna miss. Yes, we have been friends, but as I look down my newsfeed on Facebook, I'm realizing that I'm seeing posts that I don't care about from people that I no longer have ANY interest in. We're not close anymore, you've done too many things to piss me off or show me that you aren't as genuine as you once were. Maybe I'm starting to realize that I never actually liked you in the first place. The only reason I still associated with these people was the prospect of seeing them in the halls or classes and being confronted with "I noticed we're not friends on facebook anymore!" and having to make up a stupid lie about "Facebook must be acting out, I would never delete you!" The drama it could cause is just too much of a headache (Facebook drama, isn't that a stupid concept in itself?). But now, I'm free to do whatever I want. I won't be seeing most of you again. Ever. It's liberating to think that I can free myself and my life from the unnecessary, the trivial, the unimportant and the valueless. Everyone says "Keep in touch!" But I don't really want to.

Now the question is, when shall I go through and delete the unnecessary contacts?

Friends

My parents like you guys.

I like you guys too. :)

Friend

You probably have no idea, but you said something today at exactly the moment I needed it. You cheered me up a lot. Thanks. :)